it's when you cant sleep at night because you're thinking too much; when you
can�t think or can�t do; no, you just don�t know what to do; when everything is
falling and nothing is standing or when everything keeps getting higher and you
can�t go anywhere else; it can be happiness; the Internet; it can be love; it�s in all
of us; it is inevitable; partying ; it's 3am in Brooklyn by Rite Aid; it's when you live
life and feel dead;  it is when you stand next to a speaker for hours on end and
go home to a ringing noise in your ear for days; school; patience; it's the black
hole that all cartoons fall into; it's impatience;  it's that little itch you can�t scratch
when you want to; it�s 1am at Galaxy cafe; it's not doing well; life; it's excelling;
it's bragging; it's when you want to sleep less but can sleep more; it's when you
get up before the roosters; chills down your spine; it's when you bitch and moan;
it's having insomnia at Stony Brook lying alone; it's when you don�t get what you
want; it's when you get everything you want; that played out song on the radio;
it's all the fruit on the tree; it's the pits and rice too; it's the bottled water in some
3rd world country; it's insolence; soju liquor and stoges; it's pity; school; it's
everything you dream of; it's nothing; hatred; it's something; it is wherever the
road takes us; it's despondency; it's pulchritude; horrifying; it's yolk; it's when
you cant understand a word; it's when everything comes to you in a snap; it's
when you're just lying and rotting; watching things around you change; it's 4am
in Corona, Queens looking up to a ceiling; it's going to school with nothing
prepared; it�s working your ass off and graduating summa cum laude; it is
inconceivable; it's a car; it's a kid; it's a legacy; it's a collage; it's everything and
nothing and something that you want it to be; it's chaos; it's  me.

w e l c o m e  t o  m y  w o r l d . . .
 

"chaos is...insanity, a mesh of great stuff in a wild, awesome disarray "